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"Forbidden Memories"Written By: Shinigami 195 Disclaimer: I don't own them Rating: R Warnings: Yaoi Pairings: 1x2 3x4 Summary: An 18 year old boy goes off to University
but there is a nagging feeling of deja vu as he encounters new friends.
Nothing is what it seems as he struggles to regain his forgotten memories. "Forbidden Memories" Prologue They say that saying goodbye is one of the hardest things that you have to do. I was currently standing on the docks on the space shuttle, hugging my parents’ goodbye yet I didn’t feel sad at all. I was leaving them to go to University on the Colony L4 and I couldn’t afford to keep going back and forth between Earth and the Colony, so this was goodbye for three years. I wasn’t sad to say goodbye. I never felt close to them. It was two years ago that I woke up to discover them standing over me, welcoming me back to the world. You see, I have a car crash at the age of sixteen with my best friend. My friend died while I had lucky and had been thrown from the car. I had suffered a sever knock to the head which left me with amnesia. The doctors said that one day I might recover from it but it seemed to be permanent. I could remember nothing. My first memory was waking up eighteen months ago to see unfamiliar faces staring at me. I knew only what I had been told. But it was never real. Well, of course it was real, but it didn’t seem real. The fakeness was all too real. My dad and mum shared separate beds and there was no real love between them. There was no love between my father and me. He seemed almost frightened of me while my mother was always there, making sure I ate probably and that I was happy. I let myself drown in my dreams of darkness that were always empty. A bit like I felt inside. Empty and lost. This may seem odd to you. You made think I’m insane but I felt like that honestly. You know what the strangest thing was about my life? All the stories told to me about my past. Everything I was ever told. I never had proof of it. There were no baby pictures, no pictures of a wedding. There was nothing just words and promises that I couldn’t believe. Have you ever felt like you were living a lie? Like you were pretending to be something that you’re not? That’s me. My name is Danny. I’m 18 years old. I’m the brightest student in my year, which is why I’m heading to L4 and the most expensive University in the whole of the Earth Sphere and the most praised. I’m not scared of going there alone. I’m not scared that I’m unsure about my future. What I’m scared off is the bleakness and emptiness of my past. I want to know the truth but I don’t know how to find it. I want to know whose touch I long for. I want to know what the unsettling feeling in my stomach is every time someone mentions the war and the famous Gundam Pilots. I want the truth and I’m scared of what the truth might be. Tbc… |
